Ratboy Wants It All To Crumble
One of the aspects of my sicker self that I love, hate, respect, pity, and appreciate is a guy that I named “Ratboy”.
One of the aspects of my sicker self that I love, hate, respect, pity, and appreciate is a guy that I named “Ratboy”.
The stomach tightens and sinks.
The heart and lungs follow.
It’s a confounding reaction to a receipt of affection.
It’s familiar, and, therefore, oddly comforting.
But familiarity can be a curse.
A cursed reminder of what once went wrong when you were just trying to do things right this time.
This time it’ll be different, you say.
Why? You’re different, but what are you doing differently?